I am always caught off guard by how much things continually change, and how much time passes without my consent. I am so happy about the season of life that I am in. I have been waiting for this for a long time. But something about that leaves me feeling sad. When I think about how much time I spent wishing I were where I am now, I still catch myself looking to what is next but never fully experiencing or enjoying what is in front of me. This I guess could be called discontent. Is this a common theme in the human experience? I have been realizing, as simple as it may seem, that time is only composed of moments. That every moment I spend wishing I were in the next one has been wasted. I can never revisit that exact moment again. So I begin to see the importance of actually living in each moment. It's been said so many times and seems so cliché, but it has been finally sinking in.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble" Matt 6:34

I should update my post.

I kind of miss my days of xanga.  Facebook is so uncreative.  Everyone's site looks the same.  And you supposedly have "200 friends", when in reality....you really only have two.  Anyway, enough about facebook.  I am happy...really.  I sometimes question the importance of being "happy" because really life is not just happy. But what I really long to experience is the overcoming joy that presents itself in the most dire of circumstances.  Do I really understand what it means to have joy in every situation. No, I don't think I do.

But as a quick update in my life, I just got married.  We went to cancun for our honeymoon.  It was beautiful.  The only thing that wasn't absolutely picturesque was the fact that I was sick for the majority of the trip.  I think I was allergic to most (or all) of the food.  But despite all of that, James is amazing.  He is so sweet, he never once got impatient about the fact that we couldn't explore the city as much as we would have both liked to.  We've been back for about three weeks and married life, just the fact that I get to hang out with my best friend every day is enough to make me cry, is like a breath of fresh air.  God has made himself ever present in our relationship.  He has blessed us so abundantly.  We have a three bedroom house, two high paying reasonably enjoyable jobs, more than enough finances, an amazing relationship, and everything for the house we could possibly need....all of it was placed in our laps like some sort of indescribable gift.  What can I really say about that. Just....wow.

 

As my lunch break comes to a close, I leave you with this.

"Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."

Matthew 6:33 NKJV 

Wow, I guess it's been a while...Well, Here's the quick update. I'm in school, working three part-time jobs, leading at the house of prayer three times a week, and conferences on some weekends. I missed the first five weeks of school being in kansas city. So, needless to say I had some catching up to do. I've been working on my cd, doing some recording and remixing and such. I hope to get done with it in the spring...but we'll see. I'm very sorry to anyone that I have recently lost contact with. No, I don't hate you...i'm just ridiculously busy. I miss you all and love you bunches. That seems sufficient for today.


p.s. I got a boyfriend....weird.